JUST FERN - All The Space I've Taken Up (2017) LYRICS

Daughter

Fapped the first time since you broke my heart

Fuck, I need some wine and some time apart

And I’m probably not fine if I'm crying in your arms

Just got back from the stupid trip

Got drunk, bought porn, don’t wanna talk about it

But I guess I can’t sink any lower than O did

It’s rolling, it’s rolling

And I can’t control it

It’s working, let’s work it

Let’s work it on out!

I feel this flame that no one knows

And when it got real dark I burned some old clothes

I turned something into nothing, but that’s just how life goes

Well that’s just screaming “I was here”

And I’m leaning on the mantra “just one more year”

But I hope I find my way out of the woods because the dawn is near

So come and take my hand

And lead me to the slaughter

I'm not a perfect man

I'll be a perfect daughter

So come and take my hand

I'll walk on boiling water

I'm not a perfect man

I'll be a perfect daughter

Let's Rob a Bank

I drank the fly in my whiskey

Then sucked the rim of my cup

No one back home’s gonna miss me

Just all the space I’ve taken up

I made big plans that got broken

At least I could let down my guard

Sometimes it feels like I am choking

This year has been so hard

I’ve been wrong before

For twenty years or more

So let’s throw it away

Just like recruiters do to my resumé

Gin keeps me warm

You keep me safe

Come on girl, let's go

Let's rob a bank

I feel brand new

I feel awake

You feel it too, so

Let's rob a bank

You couldn’t curb your own aggression

Or do a single thing but cry

Chat-logged museum of depression

I’m taking over you can die

I’ll be wrong again

For a year or ten

So let’s give it away

Just like Andrew Bird and his Line Six Delay

Gin keeps me warm

You keep me safe

Come on girl, let's go

Let's rob a bank

I feel brand new

I feel awake

You feel it too, so

Let's rob a bank

Baby, you lift me up when I’m feeling down

And I start to fly when we dance around

I can’t help my hopeless yearning

let it burn, let it burn, let it burn — I want to keep that fire burning

Gin keeps me warm

You keep me safe

Come on girl, let's go

Let's rob a bank

I feel brand new

I feel awake

You feel it too, so

Let's rob a bank

Nervous as a Lifestyle

Come on bug, let's dive into the ocean

That's how I'm livin'

Nervous as a lifestyle

Come on bug, let's sing or sink or something

That's where we fit in

Nervous as a lifestyle

Come on bug, you are my only constant

We're queer and strange

& they don't fuckin’ buy it

We might just explode and leave a crater

Come on bug let's make a bit of danger

Will you take my hand

Hold it in your own

Give me all your strength

When I'm alone

Will you pet my head

Stoke me when I'm stoned

Give it to me straight

’Til we're fuckin' old

Every single stare

Every single night

They can all fuck off

We are alright

No one’s gonna care

Take it all away

Maybe be reborn

In another age

Come on bug, our life is like the ocean

Lets go swimmin’

Nervous as a lifestyle

Come on bug, I'm so close to explodin'

It's how we're livin'

Nervous as a lifestyle

Ember

Oh!

I don’t think that I can wait ’til December

My heart is an ember

And you are the flame!

Oh!

I don’t think that we can weather the weather

But whether it’s better

Or whether it’s lame

I will be by your side pretending I

Am a romantic ghost or Russian spy

Finding out that there’s no kind of love that’s free

Stay tuned for our latest debauchery

Oh!

I don’t think that I can wait ’til December

I’ll always remember

Your smell and your name

Oh!

I don’t think that hearts are meant to be broken

But mem’ries are tokens

Of things that remain

Oh!

I don’t think that I’ve become a pretender

But maybe I’ll send her

A token of pain

You have been by my side pretending I

Was your docile dog or parasite?

Frequent flip flops made me wanna flee

Tune in for the sounds of my misery

Oh!

I don’t think that I can wait ’til December

Let’s go on a bender

and bend ’til we break

Oh,

I don’t think that I can go one more lone year

So throw me a bone here

And vary my days

Oh,

Maybe this is why my dreams have been carried

By sweet lies that I’ve buried

Far under my gaze

Julian

You’re forcing dreams into my reality

I gotta figure out what’s wrong with me

But I can’t trust myself at all

Julian

My heart is pounding and my body’s weak

You’re like a nightmare waking me from sleep

I guess it’s time to take the fall

Julian

You took a dive into the deepest end

Keep a tally ‘cause you’re losing friends

And you’re only losing more

Julian

Maybe you’re perfect on the inside

That would explain all of the years you cried

But maybe you should first be sure

Julian

All the stupid stubble on my face

two hundred thirty pounds of fucking waste

Worst palette I could work with—what a start

Julian

You gotta treat your body with some care

You gotta stop sad-cutting off your hair

You’ve made this so damn hard

Julian

Break me down, rebuild me as you please

I wanna change, I’m begging for release

And I don’t think I can do it all alone

Julian

What’s the worst thing I could do?

Waste a year or waste a whole life through?

How many memories must I disown?

This Fiction

I used to drink whiskey on the rocks

Now I search for treasures under the docks

I used to crash parties or hold my own

Now the fun has vanished and I’m all alone

Well I hope we see some change

‘Cause the world is feeling pain

This fiction is driving me insane

I used to hair trigger and get real mad

I was drunk and dang’rous and it was sad, sad, sad

I used to treat fitness like the anti-fun

What am I gonna witness? Will I have to punch then run?

Well I hope we start some change

We are home to something strange

This fiction is driving me insane

There’s a wave a-comin from the harbor

And I think we’re gonna drown

Ev’rything is moving much too fast

We gotta outrun the crowd

Let your body break down

Used to rock a promise, used to be a drunk

But my rock got broken and I became a punk

I used to march briskly so the walk would end

Now I shut up and listen and I march with friends

Well I hope we start some change

We been clawed and cuffed and chained

This fiction is driving me insane

Some friction is what we need to bring

This fiction is driving me insane

The Worry

Can’t you see that I’m worried about you?

It’s true…

I bide my time saying prayers

I doubt’ll come true

It’s like…

Will it? Won’t it?

I could forget…

Will it? Won’t it?

Now I’ve had it!

When you snooze the alarm, oh my heart it aches

When you grab my arm, don’t know when I’ll wake

Will you? Won’t you?

What can I do?

Will you? Won’t you?

You held down my hands

It felt like a dance

I wanted to die

To get a better life

My neck and your hands

The death of romance

I wanted to cry

Do you know what loving feels like?

Can’t you see that I’m worried about you?

It’s true…

All these lies, no surprise

I doubt you’ll come through

It’s like…

Will they? Won’t they?

Is this hair grey?

Will they? Won’t they?

You held down my hands

It felt like a dance

I wanted to die

To get a better life

My neck and your hands

The death of romance

I wanted to cry

Do you know what hurting feels like?

The Bad Times

Long trip, absinthe drips from my eyes

Bad news so for two months I go dry

Isn’t it the strangest thing? To lose and loosen your mind

Shake the pain, hop a different train

I’ll swallow my pride to survive

Did you like the bad times when they broke you?

Where’s the place in your mind that they spoke to?

Promise you’re finding your new part

Oh you can say it from the heart

Say, say it from the heart

One shot gets harder every year

Try to dance, did they glance at my tears?

Do u hear that echoing? Are my words still clear?

No more ‘them’ just the BPM

I blink and I’m gone but I’m here

Did you like the bad times when they broke you?

Where’s the place in your mind that they spoke to?

Tell me you’re fine, we could restart

Oh you can say it from the heart

Say, say it from the heart

The Ashes

We return to the ashes

Sleep on old broken mattresses

Same old holes, custom patches

We return to the ashes

And can’t you see?

We’re living in a nightmare

But we’ve got our dreams

This ain’t no debate club

You are killing Me

Champagne, peanut butter,

Vitamins and weed

We’re headed for the streets

A siren’s song

Screaming down the streets

We’re hiding for how long?

Bats and masks to beat and breathe

When they throw bombs

Sewer maps and booby traps

When things go wrong

Well we’ll be moving on

We return to the ashes

Sleep on old broken mattresses

Same old holes, custom patches

We return to the ashes

The End of the Line

You’re a loner and you’re vain

Your whole life has been the same

You’re running out of time

You're running out of time

I am sick and sad and gay

At least my hair looks rad today

I’m going for a ride

You’re running out of time

Golden Girls and general tso’s

Makes a home of cheap motels

When you’re driving coast to coast

You’re bound to meet some ghosts

Time to find out if you’ve changed

My whole life has been so strange

I’m stepping up this time and then

I’m gonna be fine and then I’ll

Take it to the end of the line

Keep moving

Something’s bound to break

Take it to the end of the line

We’re losing

It may seem hateful

I’ve gotta reach the end of the line

I’m a loner and I’m vain

We have both turned out the same

You changed my fucking life

I’ll take yours tonight

Take it to the end of the line

Keep moving

Something’s bound to break

Take it to the end of the line

We’re losing

It may seem hateful

I’ve gotta reach the end of the line

Maybe I'm Crying

Maybe I’m crying, maybe I’m crying, maybe I’m crying

It’s too late to find the source

And I can’t go home anymore

My old self is dying, my old self is dying, oh bug am I dying?

Sometimes I don’t get the world

And I’m just another girl