Jeff Burgess - Horse Friend (2015) LYRICS

If I get the job with that missionary

Then with the force of your God I can steal your dream

And everything will be…

Everything will be…

Everything will be…

There’s a certain force, it’s imaginary (to me)

But if it’s real to you I can finally redeem

And everything will be…

Everything will be…

Everything will be…

Fine

I miss the way that you smell and the way that you breathe

I miss the way that you smile with half of your teeth

But everything is going to be, everything is going to be

Everything is going to be fine

I came in like a lightning storm to a tree

Oblivious and striking constantly

But something about you improves me, everything is going to be

Everything is going to be fine

Give me time, I know you feel weak

I haven’t slept well since you left me

Count some stars or count some dreamsheep

Everything is going to be

Everything is going to be fine

I’ll whisper to you as you drift off to sleep

The only promise I can really keep

You have to try, you have to trust me

That everything is going to be

I’m still bad but you can break me

And both of us are going to be

Everything is gonna be fine!

Yiff me in the park I’ll be waiting in the dark by the Get Go

Don’t leave a trail ‘cause they will tail us if they know you’re alone

Come with me and hide in the slide, keep your grip and don’t let go

We’ve got the whole night, it’s bright, so why not turn off your phone?

Hear the wind and the chimes

Feel the motion of time

You’re like a lifeboat for me

But I’m an ocean!

Why do I break everything that I love?

Just take the stars from the sky!

Why do I break everything that I love?

Just make my broken wings fly

Why do I break everything that I love?

Is this how I have to survive?

Why do I break everything that I love?

Just teach me a new way to thrive

When the sirens shout and the firemen head out for the rescue

We can hop the gate for a date at the top of the road

In here I can hold your hand ‘cause the woods never stress you

No one will see you and me as we break the honor code

Smell the oak and the pine

Thinning air as we climb

You’re like a daydream for me

But I’m a nightmare!

Why do I break everything that I love?

Just take the stars from the sky!

Why do I break everything that I love?

Just make my broken wings fly

Why do I break everything that I love?

Is this how I have to survive?

Why do I break everything that I love?

Just teach me a new way to thrive

There's a certain thing about tranquility

You never know it's there until it's gone

Now I operate with false stability

So that I can reach my denouement

Howling at the moon is fun

You never realize til you're done

Is there something left that's mine?

Can you tell me that I'm fine?

I'm trapped here in my mind

For there's something I must find

When I leave this world behind

Locked inside a room, the window is the world

When she leaves the nurse does not exist

And here and now all I can see

Is a bush, some rocks, a tree

But these haunting daymares still persist

And when my trigger runs right past

I start to shiver and I ask

Behold the nightmare

It's cold but there's a light there

At the bark I don't howl back

But in my mind I start to crack

Is there something left that's mine?

Can you tell me that I'm fine?

I'm trapped here in my mind

For there's something I must find

When I leave this world behind

Bugs ate my car

And I couldn’t go far in a buggy car

And now they’ve jumped the shark

In my stolen car and broke my heart

Do you wanna be a boyfriend or a girlfriend?

You can absolutely think about it!

You wanna be my boyfriend or my girlfriend?

You can spend some time thinking ‘bout it?

Peace ain’t hard to find

I’m on the table and I’m dripping wine

But stakes are hard to grasp

Now I’m on the floor and I need a cast

Do you wanna be a boyfriend or a girlfriend?

You can absolutely think about it!

Can I be your boyfriend? No your girlfriend!

No, I need some time to think about it!

Do you wanna be a boyfriend or a girlfriend?

You can absolutely think about it!

Can I be your boyfriend? No your girlfriend!

No, I need some time to think about it!

Summer’s coming I hear you humming my song

The bugs and sharks in my head said I don’t belong

Bugs ate my car

No one goes far in a cloudy jar

And now I’ve jumped the shark

In a stolen car and I broke my own heart

Do you wanna be a boyfriend or a girlfriend?

You can absolutely think about it!

Can I be your boyfriend? No your girlfriend!

No, I need some time to think about it!

Do you wanna be a boyfriend or a girlfriend?

You can absolutely think about it!

Can I be your boyfriend? No your girlfriend!

No, I need some time to think about it!

We are drowning in our blankets, we are climbing from the couch

Drinking straight arsenic, drinking straight arsenic

Tearing up the sofa, clowning around

Grape juice Pennsylvanian without a metal barrel to be found

And we drive for something better and we break our local laws

And we read exposing letters about their flaws

And we want a taste of godship, just a sip is all

A ‘shiner we met at Scoreboard takes us to the stall

And there are tiny pony chairs in the hall…

Moonshine in the bathroom, homebrew in the bed

Tastes a bit like gasoline, I think her gas can leaked a bit

Follow her white pick up, what do we hope to find?

‘Neath the tar beyond the trailer park—this is where she makes the famous wine

And we’re not sure how to tell her as we’re blindfolded and led

Down the stairs into a cellar that there’s danger ahead

We can hear the cushions rustling, underground the sound is small

As we drink the wine of gods, we can hear someone crawl

And there are tiny pony chairs in the hall

So we climb into the barrels, drown ourselves in wine and fall

Out from the cushions into our apartment, just before the wrecking ball

And there are tiny pony chairs in the hall

But they won’t fit into my backpack at all

So I leave tiny pony chairs in the hall

I keep my head on my shoulders, it’s white guy problems—I deserve the pain I feel

Everything’s a bad dream when you’re living with me

I’m not wearing black because I’m a bad guy who's using guilt to steal

I’m bad ‘cause I love your memory

I want you to see me in bed screaming curses at the sky

People wandering toward me smell the fear in my mind

And a month goes by—I haven’t written a song

I have a hundred thousand dreams, they’re about you all night long

The devil’s in the details and there’s a devil in me

I didn’t ask to inconvenience or to dream between your sheets

Surely friendship has its foils, swiftly swerve around the cracks

Am I still your bad guy just because I’m dressed in black?

You beautiful creatures and your weird roots and law

It doesn’t make sense to me anymore

The choices you make and the ways that you lie

I guess it’s vain to try and figure out why

I treat my instruments like they’re body extensions, or a bandage for a wound

Every night’s a sad night if you sleep on the floor

In retrospect I can see that you didn’t think you were lying, you just didn’t know what to do

No one had ever said “I love you” to your face before

If I was desperate or dumber I would beg to be yours

Sometimes the best friendships just veer off course

“I’ll do anything you want—I’ll be your griffon, your bat”

But I’m slowly turning myself into a sewer rat

Because you fed me your food, I can’t complain that you lied

I guess being honest that you hurt me is worth less than a ride

There’s a devil inside me, a villain coming to life

I’m gonna use my mind tricks to turn you into my wife

I’ll eat your food, I’ll smoke your weed

I’ll drink your gas, I’ll dream your dreams

I’ll hold your head as you vomit at my feet

I’ll use magic to change you ’til you can’t tell cold from heat

I just wanna control you, I just want control

I wanna drink your body, I wanna smoke your soul

I’ll tell you lies I’ll wear a disguise

Watch out, man, go! I’m coming for you—I’m the king of bad guys

You beautiful creatures and your weird roots and law

It doesn’t make sense to me anymore

The choices you make and the ways that you lie

I guess it’s vain to try and figure out why

You beautiful creatures and your weird roots and law

It never makes sense to me anymore

For all of the failures you never learn a new route

I guess it’s in vain to try to figure out

I know I’ll never need an alibi

I wasn’t there ‘cause I was too drunk to fly

Y’all can back me up, but it may take a plow

I always join the games, and I always drop out

It’s a fake… it’s real…

It’s a fake… it’s real!!

Berry, I’d marry you if I could stand

Berry, I’d carry you to places across the land

It’s scary how I can’t tell my feet from my hands

If I wasn’t too drunk right now I’d sing ’til I got banned

Do you ever feel your feelings feel too magnified?

Ever right to say something, it don’t come out tried?

I think the sun is rising, is it morning again?

I always see the start but I never see the end

It’s a fake… it’s real…

It’s one big ass hat… it’s real!!

Berry, I’d marry you if I could stand

Berry, I’d carry you to places across the land

It’s scary how I can’t tell my feet from my hands

If I wasn’t too drunk right now I’d sing ’til I got banned

Mary, I’d bury you if I could stand

Mary, I’d bury you in pieces across the land

It’s scary how I can’t tell your feet from your hands

If I wasn’t too drunk right now…

Morning talks on the trampoline

Sunsets slept the sea

If everyone stands for something

Where’s somebody else whose standing by me?

Springtime drive to a funeral

That’s as hard as it gets

Everyone has their vice

It sucks that I can’t afford cigarettes

Tell your god that I send my regrets

Is there something I can believe in?

I wanna know that something is true

When I get drunk it’s so deceiving

‘Cause I keep thinking that thing’s you

I’m too dom to break too sub to take a stand

Until I’m sure I guess I’ll hold your hand

Lately I’m feeling kinda homesick

But for a place that I’ve never been

Sometimes I walk along the flooded crick

Sometimes… I wanna jump in

I’ve never had a church, a calling, or a cause

Like Nate, before I speak to you I pause

So now I guess I’ll keep on dreaming

I don’t know what I hoped to find

Is there something I can believe in?

Is there something that can be mine?

I can write nine songs that say I’ve found my home

But postscript I really just don’t know