JUST FERN - POSTURE COLLAR/KIDS OF ASSIMILATION (2018) LYRIC

Oh my god

You know what I lost

Some nights I scream

Rude tweets and day dreams

You should know that it’s not my fault

It’s not our fault

That all hope was lost

Oh my god

This country drills your head with lots of strange pegs

And I think its up to you to unscrew them

And as you do you're gonna learn how to beg

Say your goodbyes before our efforts go south

And make your vows and re- and re- and renew them

Somebody wants to stick your head in their mouth

Look right through me

Please unscrew me

Pat my head and

Hold me gently

I'm not a demon

Please dont kill me

All these nightmares

Aren't too thrilling

Find a new family for that hole in your chest

And also so you're buried as the right gender

This world’ll beat you and won’t give you no rest

I wanna eat you from the palm of your hand

I wanna learn the deepest meaning of tender

This world’ll beat you 'cause it will and it can

This world’ll beat you— oh, this world will beat you

Look right through me

Please unscrew me

Pat my head and

Hold me gently

I'm not a demon

Please dont kill me

All these nightmares

Aren't too thrilling

You found me painting on the ground

I guess I like the way dirt moves

You sat and watched me fuck around

Maybe love's not that thing I knew

I drool at such perverted fantasies

Just like that dog you never tamed

And though I’m cursed with dreams I can’t police

I’ve been re-marked and re-re-named

Can you really love yourself forever?

If not, become someone new

My heart’s been painted on my sleeve, I’m weary

You're all I have, this is all I can do

Can you really love yourself…ever?

Or love the person that they groomed?

My brain’s been painted on the ground

You’ll find me painted on the ground 

Thats nothing new

Okay I’ll go

Or maybe—I don’t know

I wrote a song about you

But I was still so angry

And I don’t need to punch down to pull through

I stay away from danger

My body’s like a stranger to me

To you I’m just a concept

Queen unicorn reject redeemed

Hey where did you go?

Do you know what you owe us?

What did you dare to unlist?

And we looked up to you!

Didn’t know what to do

De-ponified your page

Why don’t you go get back in your page

I stay away from danger

My body’s like a stranger to me

To you I’m just a concept

Queen unicorn reject redeemed

Did you almost have it?

Do you think you’re tragic?

Everybody looks for their place in their life

I don’t know a lot but I know wrong from right

God might be watching so be your best

And if they’re not then we sure can’t rest

I’m drinking right from the tap

Even though it’s bad

Real superstars—they do it together

No matter where you are—you can do it together

Fight for the changes and fight through the weather

You be my pup and I’ll be your den mother

Remember our fall out? Time sure flies

I wrote you a callout but then thought twice

I’m listening to birds at night

With all of their might

They still sing without light

Real superstars—they do it together

No matter where you are—you can do it together

Fight for the changes and fight through the weather

You be my pup and I’ll be your den mother

We might be nothing, but I think we’re something

Ah.

It never goes away. 

There’s somethin’ wrong with me

There’s got to be a reason

All my chips are down

And when I see defeat

I blame my luck on seasons

Sink my head and drown

Another day another empty promise

People talk to me but do they wanna

I save my kisses for you

Hide behind the door

And then I make a move

I feel so isolated

Doesn’t mean I hate it

I just mean its cruel

Whispers in the suburbs from the neighbors

They will hide our voices and our labor

With all their rules

I cry in corners

Hoping that someone will find me

But they never do

And if they did I dont know

What I'd even say

I’d prob’ly play it cool

I survived the sinking then the suction

How will I survive my own destruction

With all their rules

I was not a carpenter

On Wikihow I learned my trade

I’ll build one drawer (I’ll build ten more)

until the perfect one’s been made

And under the floor scaled to human size

I’ll muffle the creaks and muffle the cries

He barged into my life one night

While cracking jokes as folks went home

A drink I’d pour, he’d drink four more

I was desperate, I was alone

And now we go home as he rests his eyes

Won’t know where we’re going or learn upon rise

And I’ll keep him warm and I’ll keep him dry

and I’ll keep him safe in the drawer where he lies

I’m not sure I want this dog

I set my standards too far down

I’ll search for whores (I’ll find one more)

And then I’ll store him in the ground

A coroner, a letter

A corona and a flame

They sent it to my old house

But didn’t send it to my name

Saw your picture up on facebook

I saw your bony frame

And when I looked for love to give you

None remained, none remained

At the edge of whats been passing

Home of the widow quote “insane”

I'll be waiting for your lashings

But none remain, none remain

‘Cause you live inside of me

I hear your voice it always speaks

Yes you live inside of me

I know I'm weak, I know I'm weak

Now my skin's become a travelogue

Scars the voyage I must own

Lessons learned and debts amassacred

Torturous periods alone

Bumps and bruises on my forehead

Something angry in my brain

Don't know what you saw inside it

But none remains, none remains

‘Cause you live inside of me

(Col and coll)ored all my dreams

Yes you live inside of me

I know I’ll never

Not be freaky

Yes youlive inside of me

I’m your harvest never reaped

Yes you live inside of me

I could kill you

I've got methods

I’ve got means

Oh no.

It never goes away.

Wake up your pretty little head

You know that your never better dead

So here’s me devoid of what to say

It gets better, but it never goes away!

The summer is passing us right by

You're weary and justly I surmise

But clearly you wake up every day

It gets better, but it never goes away!

Oh ah!

It never goes away!

Well west coast girls really knock me out

When I see their pretty bodies I just scream and shout

God why did you trap me in this cage

I can bend the bars but I sure won't act my age

I wanna dig a holy hole just to prove I can

I wanna shiver on the beach and stop hating the sand

Be the kinda girl Mike Love objectifies

Even every good week has a day that I cry cry cry

And the things you're diagnosed with as a kid won't go away

Even if you ignore them

I spent a stony summer with a sociopath

And yeah she took all my spoons but she made me laugh

Sometimes I still flinch but I think I'm safe

I think I got a house but I dont think I got a place

And the feelings that you've had since you're'a kid wont go away

Not until you explore them

Oh why

Do I keep trying

Oh why

Do I keep tying myself to these trees?

You kept the best parts of me

And that abuser that you had as a kid will pass away

And then God will abhor them

Oh why

Do I keep trying

Oh why

Do I keep trying

Oh why

Do I keep trying

Oh why

Do I keep trying

Oh why

Do I keep tying myself to these trees?

You kept the best parts of me